day 22- a picture of something you wish you were better at.

I really wish I was better at singing.. It's one of my favorite things to do! But I'm seriously horrible haha. So if I had a genie, I would wish for that. (:

Xoxo.

days 20 & 21.

Day 20- A picture of a place I'd like to travel to.

 London, England!! Ahh this is the place I would like to visit MOST. I just love everything about it.

 Beautiful Paris, France!!

 SPAIN!!

And Last but not least..

Jamaica!! Hell yeah!

Day 21- A picture of something you wish you could forget.

Umm, well. The only thing I wish I could forget was the first couple of months of mine and Lane's relationship. They were really rocky and things happened that I wish hadn't happened..

But things are better now and we're going really far in our relationship. Our "official" one year anniversary is on the 22nd of February, so I'm really excited to celebrate! I love you Lane Joseph!

Xoxo.

day 18 & 19.

Day 18- A picture of your biggest insecurity.

K, I'm sure this is everyone's biggest insecurity.. But it truly is mine! Seriously, the ONLY thing I hate about myself is how much I weigh. I'm a beautiful, tall and loving girl, but I hate every time I put on a pair of jeans my freaking stomach hangs off. Not attractive, at all. So, I'm making a change! (:

Day 19- A picture and a letter.

This is lame, but I'm going to skip this. My camera is broken, so it's hard to do some of these challenges. So until tomorrow! (:

Xoxo.

day 17- a picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.

Honestly, every day I look in the mirror and I LOVE how I look, besides ONE thing.

 My WEIGHT! K, I know I'm not as big as this girl in the picture haha. But seriously, I can just see my belly hanging over my pants and I freaking HATE it. So, I'm making a change. I've been dieting for about a week now, and it's been SO hard. Yeah, I've cheated. Whatever. All I know is I'm going to be 30 pounds lighter when Summer comes. Gooooodbbbbyeee fat!!

Xoxo.

Day 16- a picture of someone who inspires you.

The number one person in my life who inspires me is my sister, Sayward.

She inspires me because she seriously is so nice and she doesn't say bad things about anyone. She always is in the highest of spirits and not to mention she is SO smart. This girl has a freaking 4.0 GPA! Jeesh, I wish I could be more like her! I love you, Sayward!

Xoxo.

more catching up!

Okay, so a little more catching up! First one is, day 13- A picture of my favorite band or artist.

 NICKELBACK! I adore them because they have the best lyrics, music and harmony. I love Chad Kroeger's voice. Mm.

Day 14- The people I can't imagine my life without.

My boyfriend, Lane. He is so amazing and he makes me so happy. I'd be lost without him.

 My mommy, cause she is my support and my love! And I look up to her so much!

 And my daddy! Cause he makes me laugh and he pushes me to do better. I love him very much.

Last but not least, day 15- Something I'd like to do before I die.

Have a family. This is what I want to do MOST. Family is the most important thing in the world to me and I can't wait to have kids of my own!

On another note, I've lost five pounds in a week. (: I'm very proud of myself because this whole eating right thing has been SO hard for me to do!! But I'm doing it. And exercising is never easy. So, yay me.

Xoxo.

day 12- a picture of something you love.

I LOVE

 MY PROMISE RING! Seriously, I love it. Not only because it's pretty, but because Lane got it for me and his promise to me.

My family! The most amazing people ever.

My boyfriend. He is amazing and I love him so much. <3

Xoxo.

day 11- a picture of something you hate.

So pretty much what I hate more in the whole world is the war.

 Oh, and not to mention my friend dead because of it. Jordan, you are so missed. I think of you every single day and even though we didn't talk the last couple of years in high school, you are still considered one of my best friends. We had so much fun together in theater and spanish and I'll never be able to forget our memories. You always knew how to make me laugh and smile when I was down. I miss hearing your voice and your laugh. :( But I know you're in a better place now and you're making everyone in heaven laugh now. I love you Jordan. RIP buddy.

 

11-16-90 to 10-13-10 <3

Xoxo.

baby?

Me and Lanes morphed baby image. BAHAHA. He's kinda cute. Or is it a girl? Hmm..

 

Xoxo.

oh i'm bored.

I just thought I would follow up and say that today was way hard. I feel like I'm freaking starving, which I don't think I should lol. I have no idea how to diet. 

I'm afraid I'm eating all of the wrong things and not enough of the right.. Or too much of one thing and not enough of something else. Ugh, how the eff do I even know? I wish I had a job so I could buy my own food so at least I know I'm eating right.

I sent my dad my resume the other night because he's in the food industry and he knows people in Vegas, so I'm crossing my fingers that I get a job SOON! I'm going nuts, especially with not going to school this semester.

Hopefully life starts to get a little better cause I've aired a lot of things out and got a lot of things off of my chest. But even if life does take a turn for the worst, I always have my supporters there for me. My friends and family are amazing. I love you guys.

I'm SO bored so I'm going to do a quick survey haha.

If you HAD to kiss someone right now, who would it be?


Uhh, LANE!

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?


How tall they are.

Where are you right now?


I'm in my bedroom.

Did you go anywhere today?


Yep I went around the neighborhood as I was running and I also went tanning! :)

When was the last time you cried?


Last night.. A lot.

What'd you do yesterday?

Nothing. Cried. :(



What are you doing tonight?


Eating dinner, maybe playing a little NBA Jam and going to bed.

What was your last fight about and with who?


Lane and I were fighting about ourselves.



What was the last thing you said out loud?


Um.. I don't remember.

What's bothering you right now?


I still have a little bit of a headache and I'm tired.



Where was your default picture taken?


At Ryan's (I think that's his name) house.

Do you believe in soul mates?


I don't think so. There's more than one person out there who can fit you perfectly.



Do you sleep naked?


Sometimes haha.

Do you have regrets?


A few.

Do you remember your dreams?


Usually.



Last time you ate a home grown tomato?


Since I've lived at home, at least.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?


Easily.

Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?


No.

What is the weather like today?


It was gorgeous! Low 60's.

Do you have a best friend?


Yesss.

If someone looked on your bed, what would they find?


Blankets, pillows and the remote.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?


I really hope so.

Are you a morning person or a night person?


Night for sure.

Do you want to go to the United Kingdom?


Yeah, I'd be down.

What's your favorite season?


Summer! Or early spring.

Name someone that made you laugh today?

Katelyn.
 


What are you doing now?


This.. Obviously.

How late did you stay up last night?


12:30?



Was yesterday better than today?

Hell no.

Ever want to get married?


Kind of. Like, I want to get married. But I don't like the idea of a divorce and it's messy process. It's almost easier to just live together.

Are you currently in a relationship?


Yes! :)


Who was the last person you hugged?


Laney.

What plans do you have for tomorrow?


Running and tanning again.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?


Um?

How are things between you and your friends?


Good with most! Okay with others. 

Xoxo.

a picture of the person you do the craziest things with.

Even though a do crazy things with a lot of my friends, the person I do the craziest things with would have to be Kirsten.

 We are always doing crazy things haha she's so fun to be with. I love her to death and miss her dearly!

Today is the day I'm going to start eating healthier. Officially haha. At dinner and lunch I've been working on eating less and eating more healthy snacks to increase my metabolism during the past few days and I'm also going to start running and doing some jumping jacks, push ups and sit ups. Yay for losing weight! (:

Xoxo.

a LOT of catching up!

I have been SO horrible about posting, so I'm sorry!! I guess I'll have to update quite a bit. (: Haha. Okay so, day 4- a picture of my night.

Tonight will consist of Teen Mom. And having a talk with Lane. A lot has been going on with me lately, and I need to get if off my chest. :(

Day 5- A picture of my favorite memory..

Oh wow. I seriously have a million favorite memories. It's going to be hard to choose just one.

I chose my first year of college. Even though I sacrificed a lot and I got hurt, that whole year was awesome. I feel in love for the first time, back stabbed by a good friend for the first time and, well, a lot firsts. I wouldn't of traded that year for anything and sometimes I wish I could go back. It was such a good time. <3

Day 6- A picture of a person I'd love to trade places with for a day.

MILEY CYRUS! K, so I know everyone probably hates her, but she has the most amazing voice. I love it. Not to mention she's so cute! I love her hair. I want it! Lol but I think she's way cute. I would trade with her.

Day 7- A picture of your most treasured item.

My Macbook. <3 My favorite thing in the world. I would die without my computer haha.

Day 8- A picture that makes you laugh.

Bahaha this is one of my favorite pictures. I don't even know why Jennie was wearing this, but it seriously made my night. And it makes my day every time I look at this. HAHAHAHA.

Day 9- A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.

As of lately, it's definitely been Abby. She's one of my best friends and I love her so much. I can talk to her about anything. She's amazing.

 

Xoxo.

kill me.

Today was the worst day ever. :(


That's all.

Xoxo.

day 3- a picture of your favorite tv show cast.

My favorite show right now is DEFINITELY Teen Mom 2! Actually, I don't know! Jersey Shore is in a tie lol. I'll just say both (: I LOVE those shows!!

I definitely can't choose between these shows.. I love them both lol. Yay for drama that isn't mine.

Xoxo.

day 2- person i have been closest with the longest.

The person I have been closest with the longest is Vanessa Pierce.

I met her within the first week of moving to Tooele because my house pretty much caught on fire haha and her parents had to come put it out for us. We didn't have a hose at the time so she pretty much saved our lives. We've been close ever since. Her family is my family, and vice versa. We've been friends for 11 years now. Such a long time! I love Vanessa. :)

Xoxo.

one last moment/photo challenge

So.. One last moment, huh? I don't really know what to say. I'm starting a new thing, though.. It's called the 31 day photo challenge. So here we go.

The first day is a picture of myself with ten facts.

 1. I was born in Phoenix, Arizona.

2. I am in a relationship.

3. I'm 5'9".

4. My favorite color is blue.

5. I love to laugh.

6. I have two sisters.

7. My parents are divorced.

8. I have a dog, a cat and a hedgehog.

9. My best friend is Katelyn.

10. I hate school.
 

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Day 04 - A picture of your night

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the craziest things with

Day 11 - A picture of something you hate

Day 12 - A picture of something you love

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Day 19 - A picture and a letter

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Day 31 - A picture of yourself

Xoxo.

my aspirations.

-I aspire to be an elementary school teacher.

-To lose thirty pounds this year.

-To get a dog.

-I aspire the MOST though, to get a damn job already! It's so frustrating to do nothing all day.

So as many of you may know, the new Jersey Shore aired three nights ago and I seriously am SO excited for this season!! It looks so hilarious bahah. I hate Sam and I can't wait until she leaves. She's a piece of shit person who only cares about herself. Snookie is of course my favorite. (: She makes me laugh. I'd love to have a friend like her.

Teen Mom 2 starts in two days and I'm also VERY excited for that!! I absolutely love watching the 16 and Pregnant episodes as well as the Teen Moms. (: I just love babies. I can't wait til the day I have my own. <3 

Xoxo.

something that i miss.

Weeeeell, I miss a lot of things. And I mean a lot. I miss

-High school best friends. They were always there no matter what. To hang out, to talk, whatever.

sam, lyss, katelyn, me and jenni at lagoon.

-My childhood friends. I have all of my memories with them, and they're the ones who have helped shape me.

tyler and me.

-My first year of college. The first time I wasn't afraid to just let loose and be myself.

anna, adrienne, lane, me and kaitlin.

-Dancing to the credits in the theater with Kristin after the movie gets over.

-Hanging out 24/7 with Vanessa and Kristin and all of our inside jokes. We have about 1,000,000.

-Being so young that I don't know what's good and bad. Or how bad it actually feels to get hurt. Sigh.

-I miss not having to worry about bills, school or anything else for that matter.

I guess most of all, I just miss being young. Things were so different then.

Xoxo.

my favorite place..

Honestly, my favorite place is when I'm dreaming. I can go anywhere I want and do anything lol. I LOVE to sleep, so that helps a lot also. Anyway, I don't even know why I'm blogging right now cause I'm in such a horrible mood. I really hate alcohol.

Xoxo

my fears..

I try not to let on to it, but I'm scared of a lot of things. I'm scared of losing Lane. He's my absolute best friend in this world. I'm scared of the people I love dying. :( That's the worst one. I also have a lot of irrational fears. Like, I'm scared of someone being in my house and murdering me. What are the chances of that happening? Like, really Mariah? Too many scary movies, I suppose. Ohh well.

Tonight me, Lane, Ali and Lance are going to the BYU vs. UNLV game. :) Should be a blast! GO UNLV!!

Xoxo

a first/goals

Hm.. A first, eh? Well, I've already written about Lane who is my first love. So maybe I'll write about my first pet. OR since I really want to get a dog this year, I'll write about my first dog. :)

Her name is Shelby and she was born October 25, 2002. She's the best. :) She's a Shetland Sheepdog and she's MY first real dog. My mom had a dog before, Meesha, but she wasn't mine and my sisters dog. My dad brought Shelby home one night and my sisters and I were SO surprised. We wanted a dog so bad! She was just a puppy then, and she was so small! This is a picture of me and Shelby, when she was like, two.

 I completely adore her. She's like my baby, and I've missed her since I've been gone. I think she hates me now cause she never comes when I call her haha. She's getting old and I'm dreading the day that she leaves me. :( I love her so much.

So for 2011, I have a lot of things I'd like to accomplish. I want to..

-Lose weight (Preferably 30 pounds or so).

-Get a dog.

-Get a JOB.

-Move out of where I am now.

-Get tan.

-Buy new boots.

I AM going to do all of these. I swear to it. Well, maybe not the dog part. It depends on how busy I am. Dogs are like babies, they need a lot of love and attention and if I'm not going to be able to take care of one, I'm not getting one. Even though I REEEEALLLLLY want a dog. Hmph.

Xoxo.

something that makes me angry..

I'm totally bored right now, so I decided I'd write another post. Things that make me angry..

-Being lied to.

-Things that don't go right.

-Not finishing something.

-Having no money.

-Getting off of work later than I'm supposed to.

-Being BORED.

Blah.. My life is pathetic right now. I need a job.. So bad. UGH. Kill me. Also- I'm watching the Pretty Little Liars series. (: It's still not as good as the books, but I enjoy it.

Xoxo.

something that makes me cry.

Hmm.. Something that makes me cry? Well, it depends on how emotional I am that day! Haha, but seriously. Let's see..

-I always cry when people are mean. It doesn't really take much lol. Depending on how emotional I am, people can be totally kidding but I'll still get upset. Yeah, I'm a baby.

-I cry when I get yelled at, or when I'm fighting with someone.

-I cry when I REALLY want to do something and it doesn't get done.

-I cry when I see animals getting abused.

Last night Lane and I went to see Little Fockers and I was kind of disappointed, not going to lie. It wasn't as funny as I expected it to be because the first two were hilarious! Oh well. <3

Xoxo.

something that cheers me up.

I love being happy. :) And a lot of things make me happy and cheer me up. I must say, the main thing that cheers me up is eating. Baha, I have the total fat girl disease. But really, eating is my favorite thing in the world to do. So in saying that, I'm trying to incorporate healthy eating into my life so I can still eat, just not as bad.

Lane also cheers me up. He always knows how to make me laugh and he makes me feel better when I'm down. He honestly is my best friend in the world.

Making money also cheers me up. I WANT A JOB! Ugh, I can't say it enough! I loved bringing home money every night.

I think we're going to see Little Fockers tonight and I'm way excited! I've been wanting to see it for a while now. I hope everyone has a fabulous day. :) 

Xoxo.

something that upsets me/new years.

Honestly, a lot of things upset me. I'm SUPER emotional, so even the slightest thing can set me off. Haha, so pathetic. In saying that, the thing that upsets me the MOST is when I find out that I was lied to. I'd much rather be hurt by the truth than saved by a lie. Even when people lie to me about little things, it makes me SO mad. Ew, I hate liars.

Anyway, last night was New Years Eve and I went over to Lane's brothers friend Kenny's house with Lane, Lance, Sherrel and Ali. It was pretty hard for me to adjust at first, because everyone was at least ten years older than me haha. But it got a lot more enjoyable as the night went on! I have a really good feeling about 2011, so I'm really excited for this year.

the girls! me, amy, ali and sherrel.

i love my best friend.

My ONLY resolution is to LOSE WEIGHT! I know, SO corny. But I have all year to do it, and it's going to happen! I'm determined lol. I hope everyone had a fun and safe holiday. :)

Xoxo.