day 19!

A video you would usually watch on Youtube.

HAHAHAHA! The best video ever, not going to lie! Love it!

I am SO tired! Today was my sixth day working in a row and I am freaking exhausted. Tomorrow is my day off and then I go back to work Monday, lame. :( Oh well, tomorrow is going to be amazing. I really need this relaxation. Have a good night everyone!

Xoxo.

day 18!

Write a letter to your followers.

Dear my wonderful followers,

Thank you for having patience with me, because all I friggin write about are these 30 day challenges haha. :) I wish I had a more interesting life! Anywho, thanks again! You guys are awesome. :)

<3/Mariah!

Xoxo.

day 17!

Last post you made on Tumblr that doesn't involve a challenge?

I trained myself to not text you. I trained myself to not look at you in class. I trained myself to not respond to your random comments. That’s how I got over you, by training you off my mind. That’s what happened. That’s why I can’t text you first anymore. You were a friend first. Then a crush. And now you’re nothing. And I can’t get passed that.

Xoxo.

day 16!

A picture of your cellphone/iPod/camera, or all three!

My phone! The iPhone 3G 16 GB.

My (broken) camera. :( My Nikon! I love it. I need to get it fixed.

Xoxo.

day 15!

Create an outfit at http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/app and printscreen it!

Eh, you had to have an account to do it and I didn't want to make one.. So I'm skipping today. As usual, I don't really have much to write about. My life is super lame. 

My middle sister Sayward is graduating from high school the end of May.. It's so nuts! And then my baby sister Savannah graduates next year. They've grown up so fast.. Tear lol. Sayward has her senior pictures today at Jay Lynn and they always do a good job, so I'm way excited for her! She's going to look so good. :) I miss my sisters.

Xoxo.

day 14!

A silly picture of you and your friend(s).

Lol I freaking love Jennie. I miss her! :(

Xoxo.

day 13!

A picture of what you wore today.

My bad, this challenge is a day late so.. No pictures! Plus, my camera is sorta broken. Luckily, yesterday was Easter so people took pictures so hopefully I can snag some off of Facebook and post them on here!

So since I couldn't be in Tooele for Easter with my family, Lanes family has this tradition that every year they go to the same park and camp out all day playing fun games and have this huge family picnic. It was such a blast! I was so glad I got to spend it with their family, they always make me feel so welcome. I love them all so much. :) I wish I had taken pictures! Hopefully I can steal someone elses, like I said. I hope everyone else had as amazing of an Easter as I did! I love life.

Xoxo.

day 12!

What got you into this challenge?

Um, I found it online, and I just love doing 30 day challenges so I decided to do it! :)

Xoxo.

day 11!

Write a letter to your loved one. Short and sweet. :)

Dear Lane,

Thank you for being so amazing to me. We have been through so much together and so far we've stuck by each others side. ;) You are my best friend and my other half and I don't know where I would be without you. We may bicker and fight, but I'm pretty sure I'm yours for life lol. I love you with all my heart boo! Muah!

Love,

Riah

Xoxo.

day 10!

Write the differences between you and your best friend.

Katelyn:

She has blonde hair, I have brown.

She has brown eyes, I have hazel.

She's a little bigger than I am.

She has glasses, I don't.

She has been in a relationship for three years, I have been in mine for a year and a half.

She has brothers, I don't.

She has an older sister, I don't.

She gets good grades, I don't.

I am more open than she is.

She is more personal.

Xoxo.

day 9!

A picture of you when you were still young.

Xoxo.



day 8!

Describe your perfect date.

So, since Vegas isn't that far from California, my perfect date would be waking up early and driving to California for the day and going to like, Disneyland or something for the day. It's not ideal, because there's no way you can only spend one day at Disneyland and be satasfied. But in a perfect world, there would be hardly any lines haha. That would be amazing.



Xoxo.

day 7!

If you were stranded on an Island, who would be with you and which limited ten items would you two have?

So, I would bring Lane, of course. And our ten items would be...

1. Condoms. We wouldn't want to be getting pregnant now, would we?

2. Clothes

3. Food

4. Water

5. Tents

6. Sleeping bags

7. Soap

8. Games

9. Weapons

10. Toothbrush

Haha that's all I could think of... I think those are the necessary things! Anyway, tomorrow I am getting a Brazilian wax! I am freaking scared lol. But I'm excited. :) Oh, I think I forgot to write about my weigh in on Friday as well. As of Friday, I'd been on the diet for nine days and I lose 8.5 pounds. Go me! I was so excited. Anywho, that's my short little update. Hope everyone has a good day!

Xoxo.

day 6!

A picture that makes you happy.

My best friend. Nuff said.

Xoxo.

catching up!

I've totally been slacking! Here are the last three days on the thirty day challenge haha.

Day 3- Your top ten pet peeves.

1. Lying.

2. Cheating.

3. Loud breathing/snoring.

4. Horrible driving.

5. People who are conceited.

6. Dirty things.

7. People who belittle people for no reason.

8. Cockiness.

9. When I'm super hungry but NOTHING sounds good to eat.

10. When I'm broke.

Day 4- What was the last movie you watched? Write about it.

As of right now, I'm watching All About Steve with Sandra Bullock and Bradley Cooper. It's about this woman named Mary (Sandra Bullock) who works at a newspaper writing the crossword section. Her parents set her up on this blind date with this man named Steve (Bradley Cooper) and she pretty much becomes obsessed with him haha. Steve works for a News channel and Mary follows him on one of his trips and Steve gets super freaked out by her. I'm not going to say what happens in the end but Steve ends up appreciating the person Mary is. It's a way good movie! I love it haha.

Day 5- Someone you would switch lives with for a day and why.

Miley Cyrus! I don't care what anyone else has to say about her, I think she is so cute and I love her voice. :) Also, if I were her I would tell everyone to suck my dick cause I no longer am 12 and I can dress a little slutty if I want cause that's what every other teenager out there is doing. It freaking pisses me off that just because she's a celebrity all these little girls are like, aww Miley Cyrus stood by a pole, let's freak out. Sorry, I'm getting carried away lol but it seriously makes me mad. People grow up! She's not going to be Disney channel forever. But I love her. :)

OH also, I know I freaking waited til the last minute but it wasn't really my fault, but I finally did my taxes yesterday and I'm getting $1000 back! Yesss! Unfortunately, I think it's all going to my dad lol. The only reason I'm getting all that back is because he paid for my schooling out of his pocket, but I'm sure he'll give me some money. But even if he doesn't, I'm happy to give my dad back his money since I effed up my first couple years. :) Yay for taxes!

Xoxo.

the last few days..

Needless to say, the last couple of days have been super hard on me. This post is going to be pretty long, so I'm just going to forewarn anyone who is reading this.

So, I got back from Tooele Thursday night after being there since Tuesday. Pretty much a lot has been going on. As everyone knows who's been reading my blog or has me on Facebook, Josh passed away. Honestly, I didn't think I would take it this hard cause we hadn't talked in SO long. But my mind hasn't been off of him since it happened. I've had this pit in my stomach and it just makes me super sad. :( I had to pick Phillip up from Provo on my way to Tooele and it was a pretty crazy ride there. I found out quite a few things that I didn't know and it was interesting, to say the least. We got to Tooele and we met Sam at Jim's to eat. My favorite place in Tooele. :) I loved spending the day with them! They're two of my best friends in this world, and since we're all going through the same thing right now (obviously me and Sam aren't as bad as Phillip) we can all be there for each other and make each other smile. :) I love my friends.

Wednesday was the day of the viewing, but I decided not to go that night. Sam was going with Kristi and Kirsten was supposed to go with me but that didn't end up happening, so I just stayed home and decided I would say goodbye to Josh before the funeral the next day. Phillip came over that night at like, 11 and didn't leave til 1:30 in the morning. I'm glad I can help him out by giving him someone to talk to in his time of need.

The next morning Alyssa called me and asked if I wanted to go to lunch with her and her baby sister, Shaybree. We ended up going to La Frontera, which I haven't been there in FOREVER, so I'm glad we went. But it wasn't as good as I remember it. After lunch, I went straight to the funeral. I was an hour early or so, so no one was really there yet besides the family. I found Sam and Kristi and gave them both a hug and sat down. They had a beautiful slideshow playing for Josh of his life. He was so happy in all of the pictures... From a baby, all the way til recently. The pictures that made me smile the most were the ones of him and Brooklyn. She loved her daddy so much... I just wish he would've known that.

After watching the slideshow, I went to find Phillip who was in the room that Josh was in. Phillip was seated in the back, so when I sat down I could only see a part of Josh's face... I immediately started crying. It's one thing to see an "old" person like that, someone who has lived their lives and it really was their time to return to God, but it's quite another to see someone so young lying there, their life not even begun yet. Phillip held my hand as we walked up to Josh's casket and I started crying even harder. He didn't even look like himself in there... But what do you expect? I've never seen a friend like that. When Jordan died, the line was way too long to even get a glimpse of him. Which I was sort of grateful for. So Josh is my first friend I've actually seen like this, and sadly I know it won't be my last.

Josh's service was beautiful. So many people had such nice things to say about him. I wish he knew how loved he really was and that he could've come to ANYONE in that room, and we would've done anything we could've to help... There were so many people there for you, Joshy. We all love you and miss you very much. :( I'm so grateful to call you my friend and I know you're in an amazing place right now. I love you.

Xoxo.

day 2!

Post your favorite song and write why you like it.

K so as of this moment, my favorite song is "What The Hell" by Avril Lavigne.

I like it cause of the beat and the lyrics are pretty on key, too. ;)

So, today was Josh's viewing. I was going to go with Kirsten but she ended up ditching me, so I decided not to go. I feel uncomfortable going to them anyway so I just told Phillip to come over to my house after if he needs to. Which I think he's going to. He's doing as well as he could be, but he's acting so strong. I'm so proud of him. I mean, everyone handles their grief differently, but I love that he's not this depressed person 24/7. He has his moments, which he should, but Josh wouldn't want him upset all of the time. Anyway, today has been a pretty hard day for me as well. I really missed my family, so I'm glad to be home. But it doesn't feel the same to be here. I feel like I have no friends. I hate sitting at home with nothing to do. Blah. Whatever, I just have a big hole in my tummy today. :( I hate it. I hope everyone else has had a good day, though.

Xoxo.

day 1!

I have such a pathetic life that there would be no point in me having a blog unless I did 30 day challenges so here's another lol.

Day 1- Write about your best friend.

Lane Joseph Kirby. The love of my life. He's my support and I can talk to him about anything that's on my mind and he listens and understands. He messes up sometimes, but not everyone is perfect. Love you, Laney.

Xoxo.

R.I.P. Josh Austin!

A few days ago, an old friend of mine passed away. It was such a shock! I seriously couldn't believe it. My day was going normally as usual, until Katelyn text me and asked me if I had Brigit (his sister) as a friend on Facebook. I was like, "Yeah, why?" Katelyn asked if Josh had died or something and I said I didn't know, but I'd call Sam to find out because Sam is best friends with the girl who is having Josh's second baby.

So, I call Sam and no answer. I think nothing of it until Phillip texts me that night while I'm trying to go to sleep. Phillip and I talk often, but he rarely texts me that late. It was like, 10:30 my time so 11:30 his time. Pretty much Phillip had asked me if he could have me for a day when I come home in May cause he needs a hug. Of course I ask him what's going on and that's when he tells me. "Josh is dead. He hung himself this morning." At that moment I instantly started bawling. I woke Lane up hysterically crying. I had no idea what to do.

Josh and I hadn't talked for a while, but the summer of 9th grade Phillip, Josh, Alyssa and I were pretty close! We hung out quite a bit. No matter how long you go without talking, it's always sad to hear one of your friends have passed away. For me, this is two friends in six months. :( A little too much at one time.

While I am way sad about Josh, I am SUPER concerned about Phillip. He's my best friend and his brother just died. How does someone handle that? I'm going home tomorrow to be with him for the funeral, but it's just hard to be there for someone through something like this. I just don't know what to say to him to make him feel better. I know being there for him is the best thing to do so that's what I'm doing. I just worry that I'm not doing a good job.

Anyway, I just wanted to say that Josh is very loved and missed and I wish he could've talked to someone about his problems instead of doing this. :( I know there was a better way out. Rest in peace buddy, we love you.

Xoxo.

day 30.

What you're looking forward to.

I'm looking forward to losing more weight, going home in May for Jenni's baby shower, Easter, having Ali's baby shower in June and my birthday in November haha. :)

Xoxo.

day 29.

What you prefer to write with.

Definitely a pen! Sometimes I have the urge to write with mechanical pencils, though haha.

So, today is day four! Yesterday a girl I work with told me I already look skinnier in my face haha. Which is good for me! I feel like I look a little different as well. My tummy already looks a LITTLE skinnier, unless I'm just psyching myself out lol. I decided I'm going for my weigh in on Tuesday, cause that's my day off. So that's when I'll know how much weight I've lost! I'm excited!

I'm nervous to go to work today, because I have to ask for a week off in May. I already talked to one of my bosses about it and he was a little skeptical. It sucks, cause my dentist is still in Utah so I have a dental appointment on May 2nd and then Jenni's baby shower is on the 7th. So like, I need to be in Utah. If I can't get the whole week off, I hope I can move my dental appointment to June and still get the weekend off for Jenni's baby shower. Ahh.

Xoxo.

day 28.

The most recent dream you remember in detail.

Haha this sucks.. Cause lately, I haven't been remembering my dreams. I usually do, too! So I guess this is a waste of  a post lol.

Today is day three of my diet. :) Yay. I never feel hungry! Exept for right now, so I'm going to grab something to eat.

Xoxo.

day 27.

Write about what's most often on your mind.

I am CONSTANTLY thinking about losing weight. Which is why I got on the program I'm on. :) I think about all of the things I would like to purchase. I want to be tan! Ahh! I also am always thinking about Lane. <3 My family as well.

So, day one went really well! I seriously didn't eat anything though lol. It's so weird for me cause I'm so used to being a one gut (haha Jennie.) So yesterday I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast, but I didn't even finish it all. I think it was because it was mini wheats and they're more filling. I had a couple of mini pickles for lunch lol and when I got off work I had a buffalo grilled chicken sandwich which I ate everything. :)

I was surprised I ate it all. And when I got home I had a little TINY bowl of pork chilli and that was it for the rest of the night. I got home at 6:30 so.. If you know me at all, that's a LONG time to go without eating for me lol! Oh wait, I had two Oreo cookies before bed and a little glass of milk.

I LOVE being able to eat what I want and still knowing I'm losing weight. I'm not getting on the scale until my weigh ins every week, I promised myself that. It's going to be cool to know how much weight I'm losing weekly. I haven't exercised yet, besides all the walking I do at work, but my friend Danielle and I are going to the gym tomorrow around 11 before I go to work. So, that'll be good! I am so excited to be skinny.

Xoxo.

day 26.

A list of things you're good and bad at.

I'm good at..

Softball.
Basketball.

Eating.

Being a good friend.

Working.

Being on Facebook.

I'm bad at..

Arts and crafts.

Soccer.

Having motivation.

Cleaning (I just hate it lol.)

Being mean.

Tying things.

I'm sure there's a lot more for both lists but I don't feel like naming EVERYTHING haha.

So, today is day 1 of my diet! Yesterday I went and met with the doctor and he explained everything to me. Pretty much the diet has a LOT to do with your salt intake. Apparently I have the blood pressure of a ten year old, which is SUPER low. So I need to intake more salt. Which is weird, cause I thought I had a ton of it! So I got this shot yesterday that gives me some essential vitamins and it was also a little bit of an appetite suppressant. I take one pill in the morning and I take another pill five hours later. For the first month and a half or so, the pill does all the work for you. It boosts your metabolism and suppresses your appetite so I'm not as hungry. I can eat whatever I want and I don't have to exercise. But I'm going to eat healthier and exercise anyway, cause once this diet is over I'm going to have to do the maintenance anyway, so I might as well get used to it!

So today was day one and I woke up and took my pill at 7:38 so I take my second pill at 12:38 haha. The pills also give you a lot of energy! I feel like an energizer bunny right now. Oh, and I've been sweating a shit ton! But I already feel better about myself, so I'm happy. I'll keep everyone updated on my weight loss. :) Yesterday I weighed in at 185, so we'll see! My goal is to get around 150-155.

Xoxo.

day 25.

Your favorite thing to get at a restaurant.

It kind of depends on where I am, but pretty much anything pasta. I really love Italian food so that's what I'm about. Anything with bread helps, too. :) Haha.

So, today is the day! I have my appointment in two hours and I couldn't be more excited. I am so ready to lose weight! I'll write about it once I get home so you guys know what's going on in case anyone is interested!

Tonight is also the Teen Mom 2 reunion special. My favorite show, ever. And 16 & Pregnant is coming back! Wahoo!

Yesterday was fun as well! I went with my friend from work, Jen, to get our nails done and all that good stuff. It was an awesome girls day cause my paycheck was a little more than I expected it to be haha. Yay for money!

Xoxo.

day 24.

Your favorite flavor of ice cream.

CAKE BATTER! Oh my gosh, it's to die for. My favorite is going to Coldstone and just getting the birthday cake remix. :) Mm.

Xoxo.

day 23.

I am so stoked! K, so I have the next two days off which will be heaven. It is very much needed! I don't work many hours, but I work a lot of DAYS. Like, six days a week. It's just annoying to not plan a whole day for yourself. So I am super stoked cause Monday I am off and I also get PAID. Then Tuesday is going to be a great day also cause I go to the doctor to start my weight loss program and the Teen Mom finale is on that night. :) Ahh, I love days off! So anywho, day 23.

Your plans after college/high school.

So, I plan on being done with my bachelors degree by the time I'm 25, at the LATEST. Also by that time I hope I'm married so I can start a family and all that good stuff. Pretty much my plans are to have a career, husband and starting a family by the time I'm 25 lol. Four short years, but I can do it! :D

Xoxo.

day 22.

A list of things hanging on your walls.

-A Sammy Sosa poster.

-A shelf.

-A clock.

-A picture of Lanes little league team.

-A beer pong poster.

-And a picture of Wrigley Park.

Xoxo.

day 21.

Ahh, sorry for slacking! I have been kind of busy the last couple of days with work and running around! I don't really have much time to be on the computer these days lol. So, I kind of feel lame cause ALL I write about are my 30 day challenges. I wish I had interesting things about my life to talk about!

Day 21.

Write about the thing that stresses you out the most.

Definitely fighting with Lane. I seriously HATE it. And it gives me severe anxiety lol.

Xoxo.